You've always known it would catch up with you sometime.
The craving for discipline, and the feeling that the time you wasted in your misspent youth has been holding you back ever since.
The feeling that if only you could return to that time, to the schools where you turned your back on the rules, that you might have achieved the self-control to truly feel you had reached your potential.
The concern, that nagging thought that has been dogging you all your adult life, somewhere in the back of your mind, that you are just a poser, and everybody else knows it.
The idea that women around you see right through your facade, have always seen through you, and even now are laughing at you.
The feeling that you need to be guided by a powerful woman who controls your destiny.